One thing that we all have in common is choices. We have to make them everyday. Some choices are just so natural we don't even think about them, while others may take deep thought and courage. I wish I could say that as we got older we make very little wrong choices but this isn't always the case either.
In order to make the best choices, to walk in His wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, we must die to our "human" nature. That means to be in-tune with His spirit that lives within you. Sometimes we will need to do things that just aren't natural for us.
"I will praise You, O Lord, with my whole heart;
I will tell of all Your marvelous works.
I will be glad and rejoice in You;
I will sing praise to Your name, O Most High." Psalms 9:1,2
It just seems weird to praise when we are surrounded with conflict. It isn't natural to tell of His marvelous works when tragedy strikes. I don't jump up to sing when circumstances look hopeless. How can I be glad when I'm looking at sad?
Answer: I choose! I depend on my Lord and Savior with all my heart. I look my circumstance in the eye and say " I will". I die to myself and plead for The Lord to take over where I have no strength in myself to handle it in the best way possible.
At the end of the day, I just want to represent Him well. Will I mess up? yes. Am I perfect? no. Will some people seek out to find something to fault in me? yes. But everyday I fall on my face and ask my maker to forgive me for anything I've done to bring shame to Him and ask Him in His grace to continue to mold me in His image!
-The Mrs. Pastor